Love Story – Wherever I go and Whatever I do, I can never find another YOU
It was the time of summer when we met for the first time.
Though we were relatives and I knew him since childhood but I never ever used to talk to him. But when I had met him first, I was not knowing that there would be a lot of change in him, his characteristics and his qualities. I was surprised to see the well matured man from the crazy little boy who was always fascinated about cartoons.
His perspective in life , style , attitude and approach all were very inspiring and attractive. they were all beyond my imagination. The crazy boy has become a responsible young chap was not at all expected.
Our first meeting has impressed me a lot. We exchanged our numbers and use to be in touch. Slowly got closer to each other. Dusk to dawn we were there in each other’s thoughts and hearts. There wont be a single moment when we were away from each other. The feeling of togetherness was so soothing that nothing else can give that much of happiness.
Days passed by, we could sense that we were getting closer to each other and are not being able to stay apart. Then on fine day, he said…”Bujji I cannot live without u”, and he uttered those three magical words. “I Love you.”
“Wherever I go and however I do, I can never find another YOU”
The most easiest three words which you can utter but cannot maintain it for the whole life(that is the worst part). I was also in love with him by that time. His pure way of expressing the love towards me flattered me and accepted his love. I was on cloud 9. There were no boundaries for my happiness cos that was my first love indeed. Words cannot describe my feelings and love towards him.
He was very caring and sensitive. I loved his sense of humour as well. It was the month of march when we met in a temple where poured sindoor at my forehead and said, you are mine and no one in this world could ever separate us. That feeling made to be his own forever. I had no words at that time, I just looked into his eyes being deeply fallen for him.
Everyday he use to wait for me outside a bus stop where we use to gossip hours together and he use to drop me at my home which was 55
km from his place. That awesome journey was like a feeling staying together forever. His love, affection and care was not even comparable to anyone in this whole world. Even my parents doesn’t realise what I wanted in every single step of my life but he was the one who could sense my feelings. I was very happy n lucky to have him. But I told my limitations at home but still he insisted for our relationship. I got convinced and was happy.
Our engineering results were out and I cleared all my subjects but he could not clear. He got angry and said, all this has happened cos of you. I was shocked by his behaviour and tried to console him saying everything will be fine soon.
It was his first birthday when I called him to wish and wanted to meet him, but he denied. That day he disappointed me a lot. I could not prevent myself from crying and tears rolled out of my eyes. I was fully depressed and was not able to control myself.
He was financially not stable and his family was dependent on him. So all those tensions made him behave differently. I constantly used to console him, but he was more focused for his career. He joined some job which could not fetch him a good some of money. There the differences started among us. He started ignoring me and kept himself busy. I kept on convincing me saying he is under pressure of life.
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“My first birthday after our love started could be exciting”…this was my expectation. he denied even to wish me. I was shattered. I begged him to talk to me but he refused.
A dreadful day has come when his dad saw all the gifts and letters from my end and asked him about our love. After forcing, he accepted that we were in love. his mother buried all our memories saying—I will burn myself if you will ever talk to that girl. He left his home at that time and didn’t return for three days.
I was continuously texting him and calling him but he didn’t respond. His sister told me about the incident which has happened and asked me to forget him forever. I was motionless when I heard the shocking news.
It was the beginning of the year when I kept on calling him. He didn’t respond to my calls, mails and messages. Like a mad I use to call him 100 times in day and use to text him asking to talk to me once at least. Nothing could move him, neither my tears nor my calls/texts/mails. I was depressed completely. I was in deep shock that the one who has promised me to stay forever has ramped up so quickly. I tried to approach him in ‘n’ number of ways but he closed all my ways which I could reach him. he almost made me die for him but he remained unmoved. I Cried for him for 2 years, he never changed.
His career, his family and his friends became his priority. I tried to make myself collect from the broken pieces and somehow got into a job.
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After 2 years he contacted me saying–“how are u? Don’t expect me to return into your life. I have become a stone and no one can ever change me. We can be friends if you want'”.
Those words really pinched me at the lower levels of my heart where he was constantly making deep wounds.
My only reply was–I cant, please don’t leave me. I cannot stay without you.
He was merciless, he didn’t listen to me, every time he use to ignore me saying he was busy.
My life seemed to be shattered and I somehow partially agreed to his words. We use to talk but once in 3 months or so. Whenever he felt like repenting he use to call me saying sorry, but I had moved already at that point of time in my life.
This continued for 4 years, he use to make me cry every night with his harsh words which pounced my heart. Presently he has got a very good job and I am also working, but he has no regrets for making me cry and leaving me in the midst of everything. As a result, I have lost faith in relationships.
I waited for him for 7 years thinking that he may change in a better way but he has become something in contrary. I have no regrets as well cos I was only being cheated but I never cheated him. I was true to love.
Wherever you are, don’t think that I am not happy without you. I am very happy that you could not make this relationship happen, otherwise it could be a disaster. I don’t hate you cos even hate will lose its meaning if that is used in your case.
Goodbye
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